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    Quote Originally Posted by viewsocial View Post
    love the pic! I've been there...and its still beautiful

    me too...that place is NICE. did a good job with the angle. I did some photography in high school. It was really fun.\I have a uncle who does it and makes a good living on it. Maybe you ought to try that? Looks like you have some talent for it.

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    Hey Guys

    tracy said: You mentioned you were using. I may be wrong, but it seems that you are a multi-drug user. I wonder if using stimulants such as cocaine and methamphetamines are causing you to feel more anxious than normal. These two drugs, in particular, have a way of making some people more aggressive and angry. This "rage" type behavior is due to experiencing something called "fight or flight" response. If you've never heard of "fight or flight" responses, it is a state in the body where one feels a constant threat and therefore, must either run away or fight. See more here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fight-or-flight_response

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    You got me. Yes, I am what's called a multi-drug user. I take whatever I can find. That's what I was doing for the past several months anyway. Remember I told you about my girlfriend being in the hospital? They had her in chains.

    She was in a bad way. Real bad. Come to find out, she'd gotten some bad stuff. They say she had 16 different substances in her system. Almost killed her. She's in a rehab, but they won't let me see her yet. They told me she's doing ok, but her boyfriend said she's wasted.

    I haven't been here for a while because I took some of her stuff. I think it was on the 26th when they took me to the hospital. I had stopped breathing. The emt's had to code me 4 times on way to hospital. The only thing I remember was when I woke up in the shower with a nurse. She said I was screaming and I should calm down.

    The next thing I know, I'm in the bed, with restraints. There's 6 people around me, and that nurse is gone. And I'm all dry!

    I guess it went like this for several days. Finally I signed myself out. They were getting ready to send me to a rehab facility clear on the other side of the county, and I refused.

    So here I am. Been out since yesterday. The first thing I did was get loaded.

    But I agreed to come back. You guys are alright. I don't mind talking to you online. Just not ready to go to rehab again.

    By the way, happy 4th of July!

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    and happy 4th to you, media!

    Wow, your friend is lucky to be alive, it sounds like. Not to mention - you.

    About this rage thing...I had a roommate a while ago who did nothing but cocaine and when she couldn't get it, it was usually crystal meth.

    I ended up kicking her out because her rages got so violent. She trashed my apartment so many times! I tried to help her, but she wasn't willing or ready to accept help. Besides, my nose was so far into a bottle... well, that was then, right?

    We're here for you, Media, if you want to talk.

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    Thanks, hey, what do you do in your spare time, if you're not doing drugs anymore. I mean, isn't it a BORING life? SanDiego433.jpg

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    Quote Originally Posted by mediaworld97 View Post
    Thanks, hey, what do you do in your spare time, if you're not doing drugs anymore. I mean, isn't it a BORING life? SanDiego433.jpg

    Lol, OH, My Young Friend (and I say this with kindness),

    You are SO in for a major life transformation! When one spends their days, weeks, and years in the grip of substance abuse, such as what my own life was like... YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT KIND OF JOY IT IS TO BE ALIVE! To be free of all the addictions!

    It truly is like being reborn again. Yeah, there are hard days. Days when everything goes wrong and you just want to run away into the solitude of that bottle (in my case). Life IS hard; it's not for sissies! And truthfully, you really cannot taste all the nuances of this thing we call "life" if you're self-medicated.

    Life is supposed to teach us lessons. We're SUPPOSED to learn from these lessons, and GROW from the lessons learned.

    From the beginning of my struggles with overcoming my addictions, I envisioned the oyster. Do you know how we get pearls out of the oysters? That's an amazing thing. Really.

    That little oyster is going along, doing what little oysters do at the bottom of his space in his watery world, just enjoying the ebb and flow of life. All of a sudden, he notices a teeny, tiny, almost imperceptible speck of sand that has gotten into his shell. He doesn't like it there; his body is soft and fragile, easily tearing when it comes into contact with rough things.

    So, he sets out to get rid of it. He spits at it, tries to push it out of the shell, tries to eat it - anything and everything it can do to get rid of that intruder, but alas, nothing works.

    In my mind's eye, I see him go through the emotions, all the emotions that naturally, anybody would feel at this point. Curiosity, surprise, rage, overwhelm, defeat, resignation, and then, maybe, after getting his second wind, doing it all over again.

    So now, it's there. It hasn't disappeared, hasn't gone away, hasn't even changed in any way. He's gotta come up with a better plan; his body is getting ripped to shreds, with all that (now irritating) ebbing and flowing around him.

    That little oyster decides, perhaps resigns himself to the idea that he might as well learn to live with that irritating speck of sand.

    He comes up with a plan to spit on it, and coat that speck with his saliva, so it doesn't hurt so much. Yeah, it still bothers him. After all, this shell is HIS home!

    Every once in a while, that thought gets him excited and he goes over to the speck and spits at it. Over and over, he does that. For several years, that little oyster has made it his life's mission to show that speck just who owns this space.

    One day, a diver comes along and grabs the oyster off the sea bottom, opens the shell, and voila! A beautiful, precious pearl!

    I'm sure that oyster had no idea that he was creating something so lovely. I'm sure that speck was a real pain to him. But if that speck hadn't been there, the oyster would never had created such a masterpiece as that pearl.

    By now, I'm sure you've gotten the analogy, are probably sick of hearing about that oyster, lol. But to me, that visual image really helped pull me through when I felt weakest, when I felt alone.

    Hope that helps.

    ~Tracy
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    Just so you don't think this story only applies to oysters...


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    Hello Mason, Thank you for this wonderful Information.

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