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    dont know where to ask this, so ill ask it here

    Please someone help me I don't know if this is a common problem or not and i know this is a drug forum but im hoping you can help me anyway but I think I am addicted to being a prostitute I have been a prostitute since I was only 14 years old I'am 19 years old now I absolutely hate doing the actual job I hate the men I see and I hate doing it it fills me with dread when I know I'm about to do it and when I'm doing the job I feel horrible like I could literally rip the mans head off (or other things) it makes me angry and sad but I keep doing it I live in San Diego lots of business men come here away from their wives where im at youre not allowed to run a bussiness I love my home and I would have no where to go if I lost this apartment my whole life would be ruined I also have a dog and me and her are like a little family she's all I have and if I loose this apartment I wouldn't have anywhere for us to live and I would just kick myself that should be a reason not for me to take the risk of prostituting I know I need to stop doing it I keep telling myself I will stop doing it but I never do does anyone know why? I don't even really need the money I take drugs and sell plenty I used to smoke a lot of weed and even grow it here in san diego and take coke and pills and I haven't smoked weed for 8 months neither do I want too I have savings in my bank I have everything I need for me and my dog and basically everything I want a nice big t.v, sofa, bed, exercise machine, furniture I have a good life now and I hate being a prostitute so why do I do it? and how can I stop? For about 2 years now I've been telling myself don't be a prostitute and work from home you will get caught out and be arrested and what will happen to your dog you will be sitting in a prison cell thinking I would pay 10 grand to get out of here and go back to how it was before I got caught so why do I keep doing it sometimes not even for much money just like 40? I'd be grateful for anyones opinions and advice thanks

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    Quote Originally Posted by mediaworld97 View Post
    Please someone help me I don't know if this is a common problem or not and i know this is a drug forum but im hoping you can help me anyway but I think I am addicted to being a prostitute I have been a prostitute since I was only 14 years old I'am 19 years old now I absolutely hate doing the actual job I hate the men I see and I hate doing it it fills me with dread when I know I'm about to do it and when I'm doing the job I feel horrible like I could literally rip the mans head off (or other things) it makes me angry and sad but I keep doing it I live in San Diego lots of business men come here away from their wives where im at youre not allowed to run a bussiness I love my home and I would have no where to go if I lost this apartment my whole life would be ruined I also have a dog and me and her are like a little family she's all I have and if I loose this apartment I wouldn't have anywhere for us to live and I would just kick myself that should be a reason not for me to take the risk of prostituting I know I need to stop doing it I keep telling myself I will stop doing it but I never do does anyone know why? I don't even really need the money I take drugs and sell plenty I used to smoke a lot of weed and even grow it here in san diego and take coke and pills and I haven't smoked weed for 8 months neither do I want too I have savings in my bank I have everything I need for me and my dog and basically everything I want a nice big t.v, sofa, bed, exercise machine, furniture I have a good life now and I hate being a prostitute so why do I do it? and how can I stop? For about 2 years now I've been telling myself don't be a prostitute and work from home you will get caught out and be arrested and what will happen to your dog you will be sitting in a prison cell thinking I would pay 10 grand to get out of here and go back to how it was before I got caught so why do I keep doing it sometimes not even for much money just like 40? I'd be grateful for anyones opinions and advice thanks

    CAN I SPEAK MY PIECE ...?

    Damn that hits hard. Sober to boot?? That's chilling stuff sister. You seem like a bright, intelligent woman and would bet you'd thrive once you find your happiness. You need to stop this like yesterday. Rooting for you sister. Be well. Be safe. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

    Please come back and let us help you through it.


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    Media check your inbox

    sent you a personal note...

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    Media..

    Addicted to sex? Errrrrrm, no.

    No offense, and you have been candid with your own addiction, but women and some men that are out there working who have sold their soul to men like you don't want to be there. What they need to do is pay bills, feed their kids, make the rent.

    Prayers and care sent to you ladies.

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    MEDIA, please, please know my heart breaks for you.

    Honestly, I do not believe you're addicted to prostitution. You're "addicted" to the money. It's what you know. Kind of like a waitress. They know them tips at the end of the night. They have that money in their hand and they know how to get good tips because usually they've been doing it since they were 14 years old like you.

    Your pup needs you. You need you. You're obviously a very intelligent young woman and have survived this ugly world so far on your own.

    Is there any outreach services where you live? Even try and call a crisis line like RAINN or Women Organized Against Rape and they could point you in a direction that can get you help.

    Stand tall, sweetie. Know you are cared for. Know you're a good momma to your doggie. Know there's a way out.

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    Media, I'm sorry for the frustration. I think that addictions are very similar. They are chemical addictions in the brain. I think that getting outside help is best and learning how to manage your addiction will prove the best thing for you.

    You need to find something solid to hold onto spiritually, as well. This can seem very hard, or even fake, but it's not. Media, the fact that you suffer means that you are a spiritual being. Just remember that.

    And if you end up joining a church or something, don't get caught up in the details or what you don't like about it. Just be thankful you have people around you who may be complete strangers but they have compassion for you and you for them, and all of you are seeking a better relationship with God.

    Eventually, Media, you will meet someone who loves you and understands you and you will want to make the effort to do the same for that person. And that will also help you.
    Welcome. Please know this is a safe place. Feel free to share.

    ~4tRACY520

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